since the day you left. Even if there were things to be happy about, it would have not lasted. I'm not saying how much i love you, but i realized how stable a life you gave me. I realized how emotional i have been as a person, but your presence suppressed this side of me. Your promise to always stay by me, gave me a lot of strength, although situation have changed, your promises dont stand anymore, i still believe that they would have, had i not made the choice. Yes this is how much faith i have in the words you said, really. I kept saying i doubted them at first, but have already realized how dependent they were, i did not tell you.
This is not a case of cy happening to me, because he has indeed given me a lot, so much i didnt know how to count my blessings, that i gave it away in a moment of haste.
ZL has decided to take sometime to think, he feels that the relationship has taken too much of his life, he feels restricted. He thinks he might not be ready for a relationship afterall. He feels that i have been using my previous relationship to measure what im receiving in this relationship; im on a rebound. As much as im pretty aware of what is going on, i have no idea of the choices i should or should not make at all.
As much as i wish to run away, i cant. Trapped with all the 'matters of consequence', my life has to go on.